Ang Pasko Ay Sasapit

i will spend my fourth christmas away from home this year. i'm still not used to being away from the warmth, from the familiar noise, from the traditions i've lived with and followed in the past 22 years. and in the last four christmases, i end up crying when the clock strikes 12 midnight. at 26, i am still a crybaby and whiny and lost. but everything becomes all right the next day, christmas day.

i have already decided what to cook and make on christmas eve. we'll just have spaghetti, chicken macaroni and fruit salad. carbo and sweet, not such a good combination. hehe. our company giftpacks have the basic ingredients for spag and salad already so i thought of just buying the additional stuff like meat and hotdog and chicken instead of buying a whole new set of ingredients for a different menu. there'll just be me, ppip, raf and the yaya but i'll make big servings for each because i promised Y and C i'll share some with them. i hardly cook when i have a helper but during special occasions, i reign the kitchen because well, my cooking skills are perfect for special occasions. only. hahaha.

i initially planned on going to work until the 24th but now i am playing with the idea of skipping the 24th to just laze around and start the kitchen chores early. ppip will be working on christmas eve, like the past christmases. i am even wondering if raf and i should be up until 1 am as we used to because well, there's just the three of us. we can have our christmas feast the next day.

i am slowly moving out of the holiday rut. raf and i went malling today, with him spending 2 hours in the playroom while i did the grocery. we went to fully booked after a huge lunch at mcdo and raf couldn't help but grab one book after another. he loves it there! i am glad he is slowly appreciating books and educational materials. he is into handy manny, thomas the train and friends, cars, and basically just anything that has trucks, tractors, and big buildings in it. i didn't know ayala has this water and laser light show yesterday and tonight. had i known, we could've moved our lakwatsa later in the afternoon so we can still catch it. i just feel it would've been awesome.

the helper is busy wrapping gifts now. it's funny but i don't have anything for my parents and sisters. they're the last on my list because really, i don't know what to get them. i give them little presents every now and then and so i feel, i should give others first before them. besides, our christmas is not about the gifts, it's about being together. hehe.

i'll check our church's christmas mass schedule. it's nice because we can just walk to our subdivision's place of worship. i haven't done the misa de gallo in ages, it's our tatay who usually wakes us up to go to church. it would be raf's 1st christmas mass.

yes, there's no use feeling down during this festive season. i have the sniffles now but it's nothing a bioflu cannot cure. hehe. ilang tulog na lang! :)