Ramblings of A Homesick Heart

i did it, i did it! i'm done with everything that needs to be done today, including the script! but it has definitely been a toxic day, with all the urgent stuff that have to be done asap. everything is top priority and even my two bosses have been paying too many visits to my desk in the afternoon alone. but in the end, i am happy to finally heave a sigh of relief.

my sister buzzed me earlier, telling me about this new boylet of hers. since i'm done with most of my work, i indulged her and spent a good part of my late afternoon chatting with her. she broke up with her boyfriend of two years and so-so months i think quite a month ago. while my other sister, i just learned through multiply's email alert, broke up with her boyfriend as well. the boyfriend that i didn't even know exist if not for friendster.

i am glad my sisters come to my for relationship issues. it's not all the time but they're pretty open with me than with my mother. that's why my mother also comes to me when she has problems with my sisters because she knows that i know some things that she doesn't know. can you imagine the number of texts i receive whenever they are arguing? that's being a big sister for you.

i take my big sister responsibility seriously. despite being too tired and overwhelmed at times. when i was younger, i'd hate it when everytime we'd quarrel, my mother would always tell me that as the manang, i should be the one to exercise more patience and be more tolerant of them, younger evil versions of myself. hahaha.

i'm not the perfect role model, i must admit. and i exerted the effort to make them understand that while having raf brought so much joy to our parents, it would be better and it would make our parents happier if they wouldn't follow my footsteps. hahaha. i've been lucky enough that when i had raf, both ppip and i are working already and that ppip is a responsible person who never even for a moment hesitated to take care of us. that at least was a consolation to my parents. but even so, having a family at a very young age is difficult, i always tell them.

i told sister A that she should just enjoy her single blessedness for now. i survived the first 18 years of my life without a boyfriend. and she was allowed to have a boyfriend at 16! while having a boyfriend is fun, it has its disadvantages as well. manang's advice is for her to concentrate on her studies first, what with graduation fast approaching as well as the board exams. and when through God's grace she tackles everything successfully, she should enjoy the fruits of her labor. she should go out, have fun, travel, buy everything she wants! i don't want them to miss out on something. i want them to experience life without a dog on a leash in their hands. hahaha. the other sister is a different story. although i know that with constant reminders, she would be okay.

while my sister and i were chatting, the boylet added me up. hmm..interesting. he knows who to woo first. hahaha. i was in a good mood so i talked to him as well. all my sisters' former boyfriends try to get to my good side. i am known as the maldita and hard-to-please ate. and when their charms don't work on me, they play with raf. hahaha.

it's hard being away from my family while they sort of depend on me for pretty much a lot of things. our youngest sister even texts or emails me for fashion advices. hahaha. there are times when i wish we're just in bacolod so everything's just an hour away. i get worried about my sisters. and at the same time, i want to experience how it is to be with them - to share an apartment with them, to go and have coffee with them when we're all tired and just want to have a good time. i wonder how it feels to have them here in cebu, texting them when i want to go shopping or asking them what time they'd go home so we can go together. it would be fun, super, i am sure.

i am just being senti, forgive me. the week has been terribly tiring and it would definitely help to have a mother, or at least, a sister, to go home to. but then, this is the life i chose. i'm just glad we'll be home for the new year and i'll have a week to be with them, to live the hacienda life again. hahaha. good night everyone. :)